ATKINS DIET….DAY 1

CHello!! Yup…I’m back. And still dieting! LOL Actually I’m just tryin this ish out since nothing else worked and my aunt lost damn 13 pounds….imma do it for 2 weeks to see if I hit ketosis….i got some ketosis strips and everythanggg…we gone see what happens.
Breakfast- egg whites/spinach
Lunch- Ground Beef, Spinach, Brocolli, Diced tomatoes, onions, peppers…..it was really good- trust me lol

Soooo…yea imma cut this short, however be prepared cause imma be back on my old postin ish from now till i fall off again lol.

It’s a new day

So…fresh off my failure moment…its like the only noe of my life academically so I’m kinda traumatized and mad at myself BUT I’m going to try to move on and get over it. I’m not going to work until 12 today because I don’t want everyone asking me about my test I already know it will be a topic in the staff meeting and I am just not emotionally prepared to deal with 12 people staring at me waiting for me to tell them I did great…and then the 12 looks of pity that will immediately follow. Along with the fake ass “you’ll get it next time!” “Awwww that sucks” “I’m so sorry!!” yea..I’ve been hearing this all weekend. I have about 70 more people that are gonna tell me the same thing too smh. It’s inevitable….I just don’t wanna deal with a whole GROUP saying it. Not today man.

BUT ANYWAY……..moving on. I’m tryna get my life back to normal. SOOOO of course u know what I’m starting with. A DIET! 😀 lmao I’m trying atkins this time….my aunt lost damn 13 pounds. That’ll do my body good. Induction is 2 weeks, I ordered these strips to see if my body is going into ketosis…i should get them tomorrow. The  good thing about atkins for my PURSE is that u can’t eat fruit for the 2 week induction period. So basically….I won’t be spending as much on damn groceries. Fruits and veggies were killing my pockets man. Not the veggies as much as the fruit though.

Also starting p90x again this evening. So, that should be fun -_- NOT! But imma do it anyway. I wanna look svelte for my graduation partayyy….yup I said svelte! That’s a grown woman word…and im grown! LOL

So, it’s 8:33am right now. Imma go in the kitchen, wash dishes, clean these cornish hen I bought, throw em in the crockpot…..take a shower, and either take care of my motor vehicle issues OR take care of some birth certificate issues. either way imma get at least 1 errand done today before i go to work at 12 🙂

The end!

I failed my test

Im a failure.

I fell on ice!

YOOOO MANNNNN

I never fall…EVER! But, I was shoveling the snow from my car so I could go to work and i busted my ASS this morning. #1- there were people around…so that was embarrassing as all hell
#2- it was black ice…and i had on uggs smh. U know they have NOOO traction whatsoever
#3- i didnt just fall…i FELL…my whole entire body was kissing the pavement. I’ve never fallen like that   in my damn life smh…coupled with the fact that yea…i never fall. I mean the only thing i have to compare it with is falling while ice skating and even then I never fell this hard
#4- i hurt my arm and wrist really bad….reallyyyy bad. I can hardly move my left hand at all. My arm seems to be healing up top…i think it just got stretched too far but my wrist is screwed up. i can already tell smh.

ok that’s it. i dont even feel like blogging anymore smh. im so sad 😦 and embarrassed smh

It’s Snowing!!

How exciting -_- lol I know some people get so excited when it snows but I think that comes from a childhood of having no snow OR you know ur job is going to close so you get really excited about that.

Oh wait…most important thing to note about my blogging right now…it’s 5:01am on Tuesday morning and I HAVEN’T FALLEN ASLEEP SINCE SUNDAY NIGHT! Yea…idk WHY the hell I been up all night but I’m not just up- I’m wide the hell awake. Now, I did study for about 5 hours straight at the library last night…which you would think would make me even more tired but idk. I shoulda been up studying all this damn time since I’m so up but no…my damn brain can’t take much more right now. In about 4 hours I’ll be good to study though.

So, anyway I’ve had a good weekend. No complaints really. Lots of studying…OH I went to my financial group meeting.

These are an interesting mix of ladies…I started w/this group in september but then weather and school made it impossible to continue so I just started with them again. We meet once a month and leave with a few assignments. Admittedly, I’m the brokest person out of the bunch lmao. Most are black women, one is white. Most are older than me (thank god) but not by that much.Everyone owns homes, some are married/single/divorced and one woman is divorcing. It’s a good mix really. Either way, I’ve really been learning some good things…new techniques. After I take this Comp Exam I can concentrate on these finances for real!

Ok so my assignments for the month= develop a financial filing system. I’ll do this by taking 12 folders and labeling each month. Staple my budget to one side and keep all receipts, bills, etc on the other side. Also I have to go on a “financial diet” for the month. This consists of spending the absolute bare minimum. Nothing else. I’m wondering if I can actually do this, seeing how I have a lot to do this month. But then again I’m extra broke so I might not have a choice lol. This is basically to help me with my spending habits….I should actually DO IT huh? Yea…I am. I gotta stop procrastinating smh.

Speaking of…yea…i’ll talk about this diet crap another day lmao I dno’t even feel like GOING THERE today. I haven’t been really bad though – thank you hayzus!

um…ok lemme think…what else? Oh, I’ve decided that I think I wanna get a latte maker…idk how to actually MAKE lattes but since I like to buy em I need to stop spending 3.50+ for em and make them things myself. I’m on the fence wit that though. I’m also going to start buying my fresh flowers each week. After that whole VDay thing I started thinking like DAMNNNN the last time I had fresh flowers was so damn long ago. That’s sad lol, well it makes me sad. So- imma buy em! Every week! Just like I said I would….I just need to get a vase. IKEA! Yup! Oh wait…I say all this right after I talk about a financial diet, huh? LMAO idc….I’m gettin my flowers and the latte thing is just an idea but it’ll save money in the long run regardless so fuggit! imma do research right now since clearly…I can’t fall asleep -_-

*thinks* what else? hmmm….well i’ve been unusually “aroused” for quite a few days now. idk why? It’s weird. I hope Aunt Flo ain’t tryna make an untimely guest appearance…I’ll fight that hoe smh. It’s very strange though. I’m still wondering if I should do somethin about it or just mentally nip it in the bud. Both can be controlled really…imma weigh my options. I probably don’t need to do anything about it  since that’ll just bring me unnecessary issues. But hey, sometimes ya just need some sex! Then again I really don’t need sex. I need to focus!! FOCUS MAN!! ok fuggit…I won’t ‘get er done’ i’ll just mentally stfu. DONE!

ok i should just end this since now im babbling…it’s 5:17am and I STILL ain’t tired. Ain’t that about a b?! aye yi yi..this will be a long azz day. I know imma end up having to go to work smh….meanwhile I haven’t slept in about 20 hours. AND I have school tonight too…drivin a damn hour out to school and an hour back…late as hell. Aye yi yi. OK Well I hope u have a jolly and productive day! I’m gonna go in the kitchen and make some toast since really…I think that’s all I got. And chicken LMAO gnite! or…good morning!

DAMN!! I WROTE A NOVEL!!!

Saturday morning complaints…

Chello Governer! <~~~English Accent

It’s 8:53am on Saturday morning and I’m up because my CAT WOKE ME UP! Yea, I’ve realized I haven’t complained about my cat in a while on here. She still gets on my damn nerves. Mainly because I just have never EVER met a more vocal cat in my damn life. She just meows all day and all night. Wakes me up EVERRRRYYYYY SINGLE MORNING by meowing and hitting my feet! So now I can’t dangle my feet off the bottom of my bed (which is literally one of the best ways I fall asleep) cause she jumps up and hits my feet everytime she sees em. Then I cant sleep past 8am really cause SHE starts meowing by damn 6am! I kick her out, she cries outside my door, I have to get my ass up. I hate it. That’s my biggest complaint about the damn cat. If she didn’t disturb my sleep AND didn’t meow so damn much- we would be cool. I have no idea how to make her stop either. I’m pretty good w/training her although SOMEEEE people might not like my methods. But it’s my damn cat so I can do wtf I wanna do. She doesn’t go in my kitchen, doesn’t get on my bed, and now doesn’t mess with the toilet paper roll. But I know i cant train her to shut the hell up. Ugh. So annoying. My plan today was to wake up whenever I felt like waking up….because I will be studying literally ALL DAY. So the least I can do is get a good rest.

I ended up not falling asleep till like 1am smh. I was literally just laying on the couch, watching lockup and trying to fall asleep. Idk why I couldn’t sleep…I was thinking a lot though. Interesting thoughts too. I’m gonna stop doing some things I was doing…but I won’t get into that conversation.

Anyhoo, so I’m UP…and my plan is to go jogging for at least 45 minutes. I’m completely uninspired since I’m still damn sleepy but I think I’m gonna do it anyway. If not now, I’ll do it before dark. Imma do it regardless but honestly right now I have a big ass headache and I’m sure it is because I woke up too damn early and I need more sleep. I’m debating on whether to take some meds for it or not. I don’t like taking meds for anything other than aunt flo so…idk. If it becomes unbearable I guess I’ll take something.

Damn, this blog wasn’t supposed to be a whole complaining ass post….but….oh well. I’m tired lol. The library doesn’t open until 12pm so I’m going to TRY to fall back to sleep and if that doesn’t work I’ll do a few things around the house until the library opens. That’s gonna be my whole day. Studying Communications theories. Alllll day long. Imma come home, put that big azz chicken I bought- in the oven and continue to study. eat, breathe, sleep communications for the next 2 & 1/2 weeks. This test has me super nervous but….I’m going to tackle it. I can’t let myself or everyone else down. Aye yi yi.

Anyhoo…..wish I could get one of those damn waffles Victor was talking about last night 😦 I gotta figure out wtf to eat right now. It better be filling enough that it can last from morning till evening cause I damn sure ain’t spending any money to buy food while I’m at the library lol #broke.

OH AND NICE….MY ELECTRICITY JUST WENT OUT!!! Aye yi fucking yi. ok goodbye. This is ridiculous.

Grad School = Church?

Greetings! Last night while I was in my Advertising class, the teacher opened up the floor for any comments, announcements, etc. I thought this was pretty cool because no teachers ever do that. However, I quickly realized that it was NOT cool because it was never ending. Let me break it down…

She said Happy Belated Valentine’s Day and then said does anyone have any announcements? Nobody raised their hand so then she said diid anyone do anything special for VDay? One girl (who never stops talking) started speaking about how her 12 year old daughter was her valentine and they snuggled up watching a movie. Ok…awww how cute, and sad cause there’s yet another single black mother in the world. But anyway…. Then this guy says he hasnt had a gf in 3 years and he started getting all emotional on VDay so he called his MAMA and spoke with her for about 2-3 hours. Crying and everything. Um…what?! FYI- Super emotional men are such a turn off to me. This is directly related to the lack of emotions I’ve been able to show in life etc etc so men…should just be super strong in my eyes. His cryin azz pissed me off.

AND THENNNN somebody said something (idk what exactly) about overcoming adversity. So the teacher started testifying about her life. Yes, I said testifying. IDK Why we had to be brought to church but boy….she was talkin bout Jesus bringing her through all of these different trials and tribulations. Now, listen….I like hearing stories like this. Don’t get me wrong. I have quite a few of my own. But, I’d rather listen during my leisure time. NOT during a class in which I’m paying 1500.00 to attend. No sir. Not at all. I can tell you things about my teacher and classmates right now that I damn sure should NEVER know. And truly didn’t wanna know. IE: My teacher hasn’t been paid since the 3rd week in December. The school  messed up her check and now she’s in limbo. She has a job interview tomorrow for another job cause this school can’t be playin wit her money. Yea…why did she tell us that she’s goin on a job interview. So, basically ur saying that you might QUIT 4 weeks into the semester? Oh….thanks for telling us.

My class starts at 7:30pm. She arrived at 8pm. Told us a whole long story about how she drove some pregnant stranger home…man…whatever, I don’t even feel like talkin bout this anymore. Bottom line is- this class is getting on my damn nerves. Waste of gas, takes me an hour to get to school, I ended up eating some BS (burger from wendy’s) because I was freakin starving last night….just too much. ANNOYING! Oh and the best part? We don’t even have a syllabus yet. So who the hell KNOWS what this class is supposed to be about anyway?!??!?!

The 1 thing I DID figure out last night is that I’m definitely going to have to go to extreme lengths to figure out some dinner I can bring with me to school. Cause I can’t be eating BS like that anymore. I woke up this morning, stomach all hurt up and more importantly feeling guilty as hell. I’m goin all this work to lose weight and just ruining my efforts w/my greediness. I need something I can eat while I’m driving though or…ok I know I shouldn’t eat while driving, but I do! Smh @ me….anyway ok I said too much already. I’ll give your eyes a break and end this now. Just know- this class is pissing me the hell off.

Greetings Boys and….ok…Boy….

Today is such a great day!! Ok wait…yesterday was great too! My valentine (you!) got me the weirdest stuffed toy on the planet lmao I should put a pic of it on here! yup…imma do that later on. But anyway….this morning I used my food scale lmao very happily too!

Soooo….Today is Tuesday and I actually did SOMETHING I SAID I WAS GONE DO! Miracles DO happen! 1st off- last night I fell asleep around 8:30pm. This was after I got off my azz and went for a jog around my neighborhood. HOPEFULLY if I finish this  homework while I’m at work (isn’t that hilarious) I can go home and do the same thing tonight. That was pretty good…I’ve never actually jogged around blocks…I usually go to the track or on the treadmill. I know it shouldn’t be a big deal but aye- it was lol I thought it was pretty cool. I didn’t go far, because my neighborhood is very suburban in the fact that we don’t have sidewalks everywhere and some places are just plain dangerous to job when oncoming traffic is right there. But anyhoo….so I jogged for about 35 minutes last night. I have no idea how far- how many miles etc. It was a jog/fast walk. I actually followed the “Couch to 5k” plan..I downloaded a couple of podcasts for the C25k and used the one for week 1 last night. I’m going to try to do this at least 3x’s this week.

This morning I woke up at damn 5am! Why? Because I went to sleep too damn early last night smh. But this was a blessing in disguise because I actually got my fat ass up and went to the GYM!!! Did 2 miles on the treadmill!!  *everyone rejoice and sing* finallyyyyyyy she went to the gym in the morning! AND Low and behold…I went to a different location than normal and there were about 6 people in there!! HELLO! I stopped going to the other one because it was crowded as all hell at 6:30am AND it took me a half hour to get home in traffic, when I live literally 1.5 miles away. WELL this one was empty as hell AND it took me 10 minutes to get home. It’s right up the block from my job…literally- I can walk here from work lol 5 minute walk, 2 minute drive.

I feel great right now! Came home from the gym and did this 12 minute ab dvd. So hopefully I’ll feel that by tomorrow. Got all my “fat smash” food with me at work today…this is just turning out to be a good week for me tryna lose weight. Seeing how I gained  so much damn weight over the winter…we’ll see how long it takes for me to get BACK to my original unhappy weight..and then lose that to get to where I actually wanna be lol.

So yea…tonight i have school, that’s gonna suck. I’m also studying for my comprehensive exams so it’s REALLY gonna suck. This working out thing might end up being good for my stress level…we’ll see. Anyway TATA! This post was all about gym/working out stuff mixed in w/a lil luv for my vday gifts :-)….I’ll be more random tomorrow!

It’s 6:45am

And I’m about to work out. YES I didn’t wake up early enough to go to Bally’s but I’m going to do Jillian Michaels dvd which is 30 minutes (the 30 day shred) because I just got up at like 6:30. Didn’t go to sleep till like…12? Something like that. Either way….I’m like omg I can’t believe I’m up about to work out lol.

So, decided to blog before I work out because I have big plans for today and blogging might not fit into them. 1st off- HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! Ok now that we got that out of the way…I hope I don’t have to read crying azz statuses from people on Facebook and crap. I might just stay off in that case…but then again it’;; probably be hilarious as hell so I should purposely go on huh? Hmmm…..decisions decisions

My bestie told me she lost 4 pounds last week. When I tell ya- thats the reason I got out of bed to workout this morning! I’m competitive as hell and THAT was like a kick in the ass. She already lost like 20 pounds….gained 8 back and lost four in 1 week. She can’t be skinnier than me man….we  stay the SAME size- skinny or fat lol so I gotta get on my grind!

Cooked my fat smash food last night, all I have to do is make my salad this morning and keep it movin. Hmmm…ok maybe I WILL be blogging during work cause I just ran out of stuff to talk about lmao imma bang out this fitness dvd and holla at YOU lata!

Happy Sunday!

Good morning 🙂

So, today is Sunday at 11:04am. I’m currently in the process of cleaning my kitchen, gonna straighten up my livingroom after that and make some food. I have a meeting at 2pm way in west bubblefluck so I need to leave by like 12:30….and then I’ll come home, eat and START STUDYING!

For what- u ask?! Well….for the next month, I’ll be studying for my Comprehensive exams for grad school. If I don’t pass- I don’t graduate. Talk about motivation! I’ll probably blog just so I can have an outlet for my thoughts. I just developed my study schedule….so I’ll be on a strict azz timeline. Along with working out and going to work everyday…the month of feb/march will be hectic! But I definitely thrive under pressure so this is good for me.

Starting TOMORROW I’ll be at Bally’s at 6am. Lets see how well that works out lol. I’m going to be cooking all of my fat smash food today while I’m studying…..I hear the Grammy Awards comes on tonight….guess who won’t be watching em. I’m going to put a facebook message up telling everyone that I won’t be available for the next month, so do not bother my azz. People always take it personally when I don’t answer their calls or call them back….yet I tell them I’m too busy for socializing. It’s always when I have a big report due or big test coming up, big things for work etc etc. It’s like people just don’t give a damn when you tell them you’re busy but God forbid you hit them up when THEY are busy….all hell is gonna break loose!

OK Another important thing….I’ve been losing my fight with this “no cursing” thing. And I know why…I haven’t even cared. So, I’m gonna get back to actually realizing I’m cursing. This will be the year that I win this battle. I know i’ll have times where I curse but for the most part I wanna be curse free. I can do it, just like I can lose this weight, just like I can pass this test, just like i WILL graduate! *cue Rocky music* YEA!!!! I CAN DO IT!!!

Now I feel like shadowboxing!!! Lemme get my azz in the kitchen and finish cleaning before I run out of time. I shall blog tomorrow…you know it’s gonna be about going to the darn gym at 6am and how hard it is to study *predictions* lol latas!